Reflecting on my birthday writing retreat and what time alone can teach you about yourself.
“As an adult, it was finally time to exercise my right to say NO.”
When I chose a path of journalism and being an author, it was not to make money. It was to fulfill my inner desires and goals; it was to connect with myself and other people, and nothing made me happier. But, I always doubted myself because society says a career is where most of your income is created. There were times in my career where I didn’t make a dime — sure, there were perks, like free concerts, CDs, DVDs, clothes and to hang out with celebrities, but ultimately, I did it because I loved it all…
Sometimes we feel ashamed to admit when we’re depressed or struggling. For me, personally, I feel pressure to always be happy. This pressure not only comes from those who have known me to be the girl who is always smiling, always laughing, even when she’s crying, and the one who always looks at the positives more than the negatives; but this pressure is even more so self-inflicted. I want to be that person 24 hours a day, 365 days a year. That Sandy has a ton of friends. She interviews cool celebrities. She travels the country by herself like a boss. That Sandy wrote 8 novels that she hopes will inspire others to be happy. The truth is… Happiness is not easy.
You ever have one of those days when everything goes swimmingly well? You know, you’re feeling great, you think you look great, and you think you can take on the world with your pinky? I figured what a piece of cake kind of day! Well, you know how the saying goes. You can’t have your cake and eat it too, even if it is vegan! Grr.