EXPRESSIONS is the third installment to Sandy Lo’s DREAM CATCHERS SERIES. The book is a series of vignettes written from the point-of-view of various characters throughout the book series. From letters to blog entries to song lyrics, EXPRESSIONS delves deeper into the minds of the characters. Sandy hopes fans of the series will enjoy this 52-page companion book.
Here’s an exclusive SNEAK PEEK from EXPRESSIONS:
You know, if you wanted to write me a letter back, I would read it. It would be nice if you returned the favor once in a while. Or maybe if you called more often. I am still your father.
I guess that’s asking too much from someone who hates me. I finally broke down and bought Tortured’s album. I don’t know what to say.
Part of me wants to compliment you for your talent and for your success. Part of me thinks you owe me an apology or a thank you for giving you enough material to make an album that basically tells me to fuck myself.
Really Charlie? Was life that bad being my son? You grew up in a penthouse and didn’t have to lift a finger. Even after you moved to Boston, I sent you money every month. You never thanked me, but you sure as hell threw it back in my face.
Maybe you’ll understand now that you’re a father. It’s not easy. I know I made mistakes. I know I hurt you. I know I hurt your mother. I did the best I could.
No matter what, I will always love you. Even if you don’t love me. We don’t have to like each other. We’re family.
I’m only writing you this one letter. So you better treasure it. The only person I exchange formal letters with is Haley. And our letters are never argumentative or to tell each other off. I’ve expressed all that I have toward you, and I have nothing to say to you in written form. Writing is art and I’m sorry, but writing to you kills my art.
Yes, some of Tortured’s songs are about you. But sometimes they’re about other people too. Unfortunately, there are a lot of assholes in this world.
For the record, I could do without you in my life. Your first few letters were remorseful, that last one shows me you haven’t changed.
I am grateful for never having to worry about money, but I would have given that all up for a compassionate, encouraging father. I only used the money you sent me to visit Andrew. If it weren’t for him, I would have never seen you again. You do know that, right?
I can’t change how I feel toward you. I’m sorry for that, but some scars don’t heal. I can forgive you for my childhood, but that doesn’t change who you are inside. It doesn’t make us instantly two people who get along. We just don’t.
We can still carry on this charade of family for your sake, because I know you’re alone now, and for Haley’s sake, because she wants everyone happy, and for my daughter’s sake. I swear to you, though, if you ever hurt my family—we are officially done. I will not see Aylin suffer the hurt I’ve been through or what I’ve seen Drew go through.
So here’s your letter and here’s your gratitude that you think you’re owed: Thanks.